expectations..hidden love underneath :'(

Shakespeare said:
“I always feel happy”
You know why ??
Because I don’t expect anything
from anyone!!!
Expectations always hurt.

Ok I think I am strong enough now to post this blog without crying through the whole thing!I just never expected to be so emotional, from start to finish your emotions are all over the place. I never expected that missing you would be so hard. Every little things that we shared.. every little words that we spoke and every little emotions we shared..i can never afford to forget!

These are the few lines i had written for a person last night..~

There's a person that i know. When i see him i just glow.
He really dosen't know,and the reason is why, because if i told them it would make him sigh!

Just my expression of my undying love, fly high like a dove.
Filled with peace he gave to me ,not even knowing that I could see..

I'm not mad or even resentful, but maybe I should be even more repentful.
For a feeling I have to seal, otherwises I may not feel..

So at last I take my last breath,and say this, all I really wished for was one true bliss.
I'll see him maybe one day, but not in this rainy month of May.
But one day soon I hope to see, him at my side standing & staying with me.

I know now that maybe im crazy or is it the love that makes me hazy..

I could never understand that i was making memories with a person i have never seen.. but now i have to face this reality.. he walked away..Walking away from the person you love is the worse thing life gives us. But now I do understand why it is necessary, as love remembers. It is sad when people you know, become people you knew....
It is one of life's tragedies when you meet someone that you know is meant to be but due to unexpected circumstances and misunderstandings becomes someone you knew. And when you can walk right past someone that at one time in your life was a big part of your life...And how you used to be able to talk to them for hours about the little *nothings* in life...And now you can barely look at them and they at you...
And all you have left is that aching feeling in your soul...
I know the pain will be almost unbearable.. I can't go back, there are no do overs, and I will not relive those moments ever again..
~~ love sthiti
21.05.2011